You never know what happens behind closed doors. A couple may look blissfully happy to everyone else, but once that door closes behind them, all hell breaks loose. I know. I lived that.
My husband is truly a gift from God. He was given to me when I did not deserve him. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, that we were meant to be. He was God's choice for me. Yet, our relationship was pretty miserable for years. We were madly in love, but we did not know how to live with one another. We did not understand one another. It was as though we kept trying to force the other to understand a language they had never heard before. I brought lots of baggage from a traumatic childhood and grief from the deaths of those I loved. This infected our marriage.
After years of various types of counseling, primarily for myself, and literally falling on my knees sobbing over and over again before God, things started to get better. Eventually, our marriage became fun, light and full of life. That doesn't mean we don't fight. Two very stubborn people, are going to argue, but there is now a respect for him that I didn't have before. I think I was scared to be married in the way that was good and healthy. I was afraid that if I truly trusted him, he would hurt me like I had been hurt before. I was also very selfish.
I have a friend that was surprised to hear this since it was evident we were very in love, but being soul mates doesn't mean there isn't work to be done or hard times ahead. Had we not had that deep love God placed in us for one another, I am sure we would not be together today. It is only by the grace of God that I am still married to this amazing man. God's grace washes away all of our sins and changes us from within. God's love is what brought us together and kept us together. With it, anything is possible.
My husband is truly a gift from God. He was given to me when I did not deserve him. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, that we were meant to be. He was God's choice for me. Yet, our relationship was pretty miserable for years. We were madly in love, but we did not know how to live with one another. We did not understand one another. It was as though we kept trying to force the other to understand a language they had never heard before. I brought lots of baggage from a traumatic childhood and grief from the deaths of those I loved. This infected our marriage.
After years of various types of counseling, primarily for myself, and literally falling on my knees sobbing over and over again before God, things started to get better. Eventually, our marriage became fun, light and full of life. That doesn't mean we don't fight. Two very stubborn people, are going to argue, but there is now a respect for him that I didn't have before. I think I was scared to be married in the way that was good and healthy. I was afraid that if I truly trusted him, he would hurt me like I had been hurt before. I was also very selfish.
I have a friend that was surprised to hear this since it was evident we were very in love, but being soul mates doesn't mean there isn't work to be done or hard times ahead. Had we not had that deep love God placed in us for one another, I am sure we would not be together today. It is only by the grace of God that I am still married to this amazing man. God's grace washes away all of our sins and changes us from within. God's love is what brought us together and kept us together. With it, anything is possible.
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